Finding true me !

What i want? I have to give a hand to myself first! There r too many parts of my personality!
I always feel like i cannt find witch one is real myself! I can make a decision so easily, then i'm
gonna regrit in a few hours! So bad,but i am kind of reponsible for surfing which my decision carried out!
Bad Bad!!!!
I am a normal guy, why i have to solve all bad stuff by myself! Suck!!!
I am working on both english and japanese......which one i should put more effort!
My speaking is improved,both E an J　! But i am not good at writing and reading ,
coz they make me headache!!!
ya,,,I have to get over those stuff,then i'll get my achievement !